its really depressing when you can look around and can't even count the amount of friends you have on one hand. which means there are zero. its depressing when you can't even talk to your best friend at the moment. or even feel like he is your best friend.
when you're all alone and there is no one you can count on, when you have no one to do anything with, well at least i still have my books. but that doesn't take away the pain. especially when you feel like the one you care most about can't bother to actually pay attention to you.
i'm really very blah and annoyed and angry and weepy today. i hate that i don't feel important enough to spend time with. i hate that the boy never gets his homework done and i'm the one stressing about it. i'm the one that doesn't get any time cause hes always on his stupid phone. i'm just really annoyed with everything and anything today.
The week before last was interesting. On saturday we went to see the pirates landing. We went early but next year we need to go earlier and save a spot. Cause we were down on the beach and then when it happened we were so squished. It was a little overwhelming considering last year I couldn't see anything at all.
“Madeline Whittington, daughter of the deceased Earl of Richfield, emerges from English society s prescribed period of mourning in the winter of 1817. Madeline believes that she no longer belongs in a world of gossip and gowns after experiencing multiple losses. When she rescues a runaway from Ashcroft Insane Asylum, her life will be forever changed as she discovers the dark secrets within the asylum walls. Because of his elder brother s unexpected death, Devlin Greyson becomes Earl of Ravensmoore and struggles between two worlds: one of affluence and privilege and one of poverty and disease. Torn between his desire to become a doctor and the numerous responsibilities of his title, he wrestles with God s calling for his future. Will he be able to honor this God-given gift and win the woman he falls in love with in a society that does not value gentlemen who work? And will Lady Madeline be able to honor her father s memory when she is attracted to the man she holds responsible for her father s death? “