Tuesday, May 10, 2011

oh the social awkwardness of it all!

  For some reason I was just thinking about friends and church. You know how everyone has their group? I was thinking, wow I don't have that group. Its so weird.

But at the same time its not that weird at all. Looking back throughout my life I haven't ever been in a group really. I maybe had a few friends at a time that I hung out with. When I was little I had like one at a time. Kinda depressing really but I probably wouldn't change it.

And now its like somehow we hung out with all these people and then it stopped so abruptly. I don't really know what happened but I’m not really depressed about it. I was talking to someone the other day, I didn’t' go to this thing I was invited to. And then that person said “we missed you” and I thought... well you probably didn't even notice I was there. Honestly when I go places I’m pretty much the quietest person there. I'm socially awkward. Its just a fact, I’m not sad about it its just how it is.

And I’m not that lonely. (well I am when the boy isn't around). I have the best friend I could ever ask for in my life. The man I will marry. So things aren't that bad.

Then I have my hobbies, reading, photography, crocheting. I've always been into reading. I loved to do it from the very start when I learned. I was reading chapter books in 2nd grade which was supposedly advanced for that age. I am super grateful for books. And I am beyond happy I get to review them and get them for free! Especially since I don't have a lot of money to buy books.

I don't feel bad about who I am, I like to have my nose in a book, I’m not the most social person in the world. It was just odd to think about it for a minute. I am just a lover of books I guess, its always been in me. And I wouldn't have that any other way.


  1. I really relate to this post! I've always been shy, and definitely socially awkward. My husband is as large as my group gets these days. My kindergarten teacher didn't teach me to read because she said I showed no interest. My first grade teacher was upset that I didn't know how to read at all. They put me in a special reading program, and I've been reading like a fool ever since!! I love books!