So i'm still around, just sparse on words. A lot of crap has gone on on so I guess i'll get to updating.
I'm just so overwhelmed with a lot that I just don't know what to
say. The boys parents really treated him like crap growing up and
they make drama about us getting married. And its just sort of a
mess. And its stressful and I just don't want to deal with them
Planning is stressful cause of no time and the boys school and
trying to see whats going on and all the details. Thankfully we
aren't having a crazy elaborate wedding. Just eloping but they want
otherwise. ugh I just don't know.
The holidays were sorta weird. But alright. New years hasn't been
so great though. I got a flat tire last week so that really sucked
and i've just been so over everything. Cause I pretty much need 4 new
tires and I don't want to deal with the whole thing at all.
I'm stressed out about where the boy and I will live when we get
married, getting married terrifies me and sex terrifies me. Also
living not at my house terrifies me.
I'm a ball of crazy and anxiety and I dunno what to do about it.
I've also noticed I pretty much cry anytime anything serious comes
up like my tires i've been crying about it and when I got the flat
tire. I guess I just cry everytime I have something “serious” to
say I dunno why its like that but i've always done it. I'm not sure
why I can't ever hold it together.
I have a bunch of crafts i'm doing so thats good. But I have a ton
unfinished also a ton of unfinished books which is irritating me but
such is life.
I'm not even sure what to say or what to write anymore. So thats