no drama? wow thats a shock!

thanksgiving was SO weird cause there was no drama and no family. but its a GOOD weird. seriously thats my first relaxing holiday. the boy and i spent it with friends from church and a lot of her family. and boy was it refreshing i LOVED it. oh man it was so fun. we will definitely be hanging with them again. that was a joyus thing.

but of course the drama from the other side continues. my granny wouldn't even go to her great grandchild's party. shes such a stinkface. she had us go pick up the stuff for his birthday and take it to my cousins house. so annoying. then my other cousin is annoying cause hes an alcoholic and he wont' talk to my cousin heidi cause she called him a "drunk" she did say alcoholic which is true he is. and it runs in the family. but whatever it is what it is i guess. so he didn't show up at the party but my other cousin. he did but he recently got back into drinking/drugs and he looked SO bad and seemed super off to me. its just so sad. i dunno what to do cause i can't do anything really.

i'm just glad i read or craft to cope with things that bug me haha. such a healthier way to deal with things. there is eating crappy foods too but i generally start to feel yucky after doing that.

i've been soooooo tired lately. last night i think i slept 10 hours and i was good but then a couple hours after i woke up i was tired all over again. crikey.

oh! our family thanksgiving on saturday went well. our friend david was sick but his wife and his daughter still came. we played apples to apples. my cousin came over with the boys too! so it was a fun group. always good to have great friends who you consider family over. and my cousin enjoyed it too. then yesterday was a birthday party at my cousins house. and that was pure insanity. all those boys were insane. so loud oh man. but it probably didn't help that i didn't sleep all THAT much and then had 15 toddlers in the morning service. boy i had a day of crazy kids yesterday.

i applied to be a writer for the examiner so i'm hoping i make it cause that could be good. i'm gonna rewrite all my book reviews and then post reviews there so that will be great. i hope i make it in! anyways i guess thats all i got for right now.

i also made a forum for my blogfrog community go check it out and talk it would be amazing! and stay tuned for christmas book reviews!

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happy thanksgiving?

i dunno I'm not too big on holidays mostly cause they normally suck. this year is weird. my grandma decided she was gonna have thanksgiving but the thing is i doubt anyone is coming and she didn't even invite my cousin. ugh these people. they are all so messed up.

but we're not going I'm going to a friend from church house. i was stoked she invited the boy and i so we are going. my family is having our thanksgiving on Saturday with family friends and my cousin and her boys.  so that's that. but its also been snowy and icy and crazy. hopefully it will be fine. its warmed up a bit.

its gonna be weird i dunno the whole thing sucks. but i guess i wasn't close to the family at all anyways. but i have the boy and that's good and my immediate family is great. so i am blessed that way not much more i can ask for i guess. well a bit of energy would be good! i don't have any right now and i need to go finish baking cookies.

i dunno what else is going on. I'm making the boy a Christmas stocking its starting to be pretty good its granny squares I'm loving it! anyways i guess i should go cause i can't remember what i was gonna write about anyways. haha.

Book Review - She Walks in Beauty by Siri Mitchell

 

She Walks in Beauty

next book off the pile of never ending books (hooray! no seriously i love boooks) is She walks in Beauty by Siri Mitchell. i really thought i wasn't gonna enjoy this book at all. it kinda looked and sounded super boring but i was gonna at least try to read it. it did take a long time to read it but it was actually pretty good and drew me in. this is in the era of debuting a daughter to get married off basically. the whole thing is kinda weird. the dances and whatever. i just find that odd. but it wasn't a bad book it ended sorta weird for me. but i guess it was good. not my favorite book thats for sure but i got through it. 

thanks to bethany house for providing this for me to review. i wasn't compensated in anyway.

Book Review - Resurrection in May by Lisa Samson

 

Resurrection in May

"May Seymour graduated from college with the world at her feet and no idea what to do with it.  A mission trip to Rwanda brought her a sense of purpose in loving others. So when the genocide began she chose to remain in the village, which was subsequently slaughtered. Only May survived.
May journeyed to heal on the farm of Claudius Borne, a sweet, innocent old man who understood plants and animals far better than people.
Years later, having not stepped a foot off Claudius' farm, May learns an old college flame, now a death-row inmate, is refusing to appeal his sentence. Can she convince him to grab hold of life once again? Their surprising friendship turns the tables, for the prisoner, Eli Campbell, has a deeper faith from which to draw than she. Eli slowly begins to pull May from her cloistered existence. With the help of Eli, their tiny town, and ultimately a renewal of faith, May comes to life once again."

next book i have is Resurrection in may by Lisa Samson. wasn't quite sure what to expect, since i haven't read any books by Lisa at all. so i kinda went into it blindly. the cover drew me in though because its so mysterious. and the book wasn't at all anything i would have expected. as you can tell by the description it kinda goes all over the place. 

it did tend to be kinda confusing at times. with the different parts its almost like 3 books in one. it was really good though once i finally got a chance to sit down and read it, it went pretty fast. it was a pretty amazing and insane story though. so heartbreaking but uplifting at the same time. i would definitely recommend this author  amazing writing here..


thank you to thomas nelson for providing me with this book. i was not compensated in any way.

blog frog

this is the time for people to come out and talk to me! if i set up a blog frog forum for my blog would anyone join and talk?

"Life could you be a little softer to me.

Life could you be more gentle to me.
Yeah I know this is a selfish plea,
Because Christ sacrificed his flesh
On the cross for me
But this world is hard,
It's cruel and I wish it could be...
Softer to me"

yeah that is definitely the song for the season of life. i don't know what to think or do or feel right now. the family drama still going on. not sure where we are going for thanksgiving the whole family is divided and i don't know i just don't. my extended family is pretty much divided on all sides. even my cousin and her siblings are divided right now. its pure craziness.

I'm sick of the drama, I'm sick of the anxiety I'm sick of all of it. i mean i wasn't super close with them anyways and its always been bad just never THIS bad. and its almost too much to handle. last week at church pastor mark did a sermon and he was talking about coveting and how when someone dies everyone fights about the money. and yeah that is what happens I've been through it and its infuriating i HATE it with a passion. its so annoying and i don't know what they are thinking. its so crappy. i wish we had better i wish things were so different but its what i have and i have to deal with it. thankfully they don't really talk to me. i have my cousin and her kids and that's fine. i mean i dunno its just kinda like "eh whatever" i can't do anything. i can't fix it and as much as we wish we could we can't fix them. and its kinda i dunno what it is really. but its just poopy. 

the weirdest thing is though that my grandma now sounds happy and is calling my mom which hasn't happened since august and I'm so baffled by it and can't help but think "when is she gonna snap again" its just how i see it and i know its horrible. but at the same time. i don't really know what it is to have anything different. but it just makes me sad.

I've been so busy lately with nannying and then being with the boy. and doing things and stressing out and running around everywhere and anywhere. when i have downtime i kinda crash.i guess that's good but i kinda miss the time where i have had more downtime haha. but that's not likely to happen. its okay though.

the boy and i have had a lot of good adventures lately. but we have fought a bit too haha but it is bound to happen and we're totally fine. but yeah. i got to see my old friend nessa. that was exciting and i got to see some friends from Oregon last weekend. it just was good and happy and tiring for sure.

so this is my weekend to catch up on it all. thank goodness. the next couple of weeks won't be so busy though. so that's good and bad. good cause more downtime. bad cause its less money. the other family i nanny for is going out of town Wednesday and  i dunno when they are coming back. probably the first part of December. its so hard to believe how fast this year has gone.

i miss a lot of Friends though. i don't really know what to do about that. but i have the boy and i have my immediate family and that's good.  i mean i have what i have and i am grateful for it. that's all i can really do and keep pushing on.

Book Review - Uncertain Heart by Andrea Boeshaar

Uncertain Heart (Seasons of Redemption, Book 2)



I was pretty stoked to get this book to review it! i had reviewed the first one in the series a little bit ago and i LOVED it. i was sorta aprehensive mostly cause the series i've read lately they don't even include the same people as the first book did. and that kinda really bugs me. haha i know a weird thing to be bugged about but thats just me. so i wasn't sure what to expect, i also didn't really remember fully what the other one was about. i did but i didn't remember all details. though this one did tell you a little bit so it came back to me. i have read a lot of books lately so sometimes i tend to mash them all together in my head. haha but i finally got what it was about.

I LOVE the covers of these books. They are so attractive! i know weird but its so true. it just makes you want to know what the book is about. so this one, so good it has scandal it has heartbreak but it also has love and the joy of children. this is about a girl who comes to be a governess (a nanny basically) she had other plans after the set time of this position. but nothing went as she thought. and the book ended on a cliffhanger. so i'm excited for the next one! but this book was amazing nothing like i expected. mostly cause i didn't know what to expect. it has so many twists and turns gotta love it. that is most times what makes a great book. makes you want to read more. so check out the book at the link above!


thank you to Strang publications for the book. i wasn't compensated in anyway for this review.