I'm going to write about anxiety and fear. Basically because thats what i'm going through right now. So I need to process it.
I've come to the realization that I am letting that control my life and honestly I don't know what to do or how to change it. Its really disconcerting. And I have no idea how I got this way.
I feel like there has to be a middle ground but i'm like one extreme to the other. I feel like with the subject of vainness for instance. I always felt like I was super vain if I thought I looked really good. So I went to the other extreme about saying that I look bad or just not saying anything at all. I don't really know what middle ground looks like with much of anything.
I don't know what I can do or how to fix it. I don't know how to get over the hump and I sure as heck do not know how to trust God with any of it. I've never really read the bible much I don't do bible studies and its just tough. I don't know where to start. And sometimes you can have good intentions but stuff doesn't happen.
So thats what i'm going through right now. I wanted to say more though I cannot remember what I was gonna write. So thats that.